dun feel like sleeping yet dun feel like studying..><..

dun feel like sleeping yet dun feel like studying..><..

what the..i am going to sleep by 3am thats for sure..tml i am waking up early to study lah..i hope i can..please alarm clock please ring..><..just some random thoughts before i sleep though..was thinking of somethings lah..nth interesting though..

seeing him soon..over-whelmed...i think i spell correct ba..><..hmm boy i am sorry didnt know yr mood so sux but yet i just add on to it..and u listened to mi..thanks..at least u told mi what happen to u..and u release it out..tried hard to make u happy somehow after u #^&%( everything out..i hope it really works..thats the best i can do le..=)..

zai qian was very lu..i was sleeping i mean take a short nap...ask him to wake mi up at 11:20 but i wonder y i get up at 11:50..he was bathing..-__-"..wake up blur blur..then see MSN..oh zai qian pm mi..ask mi how my blog works..i said click those box lah..-______-"..lu-ness~~..anyway thanks my boy for that 2 SMS..which dun works at all..-___-"..i am just very tired

dun really dare to fall asleep..i scared i can't wake up seriously..he promised to wake mi up..i try my best to..ya make sure my alarm clock rings somehow..its really time to get more clock liao..haha..my mood now..like i duno le very lost..ya tml last paper..happy..but somehow..duno le..cannot happy come out..><..tml will be a happy day..hope small head brings her camera..woo..nice~~..i still dunno what we going to eat after a long discussion we had today..tml go marina square then see lah~..stand there debate till happy..-_____-"..thats my class..

guess i will be dead tired to blog tml..everyday 5 hours of sleep or less..torturing..but getting used..-__-"..on the way to attain immortality liao..so i now blog lah~~haha..=)..kz lah 3am soon..if he knows i so late then do this..OMG..dead..HAHA..:X..promised to sleep early..so ya..betetr sleep le..nah no talk to him today..guess he weren't in the mood..something is on his mind lah tonight..probably thats the reason i can't sleep now..it affects mi seriously..try hard not to think..u tell your mind..but your heart is still doing it..

night all..good luk for my last paper..its over in less than 10 hours time..great..sleep wake up left i think 4 hours..shiok~..burn text book arh..:X...this MSt sux no matter what wrong timing..wrong dates..i hate it..night all~~..its over soon..i'm glad...=)

i'm still feeling guilty over what happen just now my boy..><..

MST Day 3 SUX~~~

MST Day 3 SUX~~~

first..esther thanks a lot my girl..thanks for your encouragement..i really tml last paper i really wan give up liao..then i see what u wrote..thanks..T_T..so touched..YESH I WILL JIA YOU DE~~~u too must jia you kz..thanks girl..muackz love u lots lots lots~~~..LOLX..at least u are there..yesh..=)..and also thanks those who give mi encouragements this few days..lin arh..shir arh..HIM arh..sop arh...and everybody..thanks..~~~..

today PME..one word to describe..GONE CASE..forget it..nvm..we've found ways to pass that module..:X..yesh self an wei too..HAA..seriously write till this point i still overwhelm by what esther wrote..:X..LOLX~~..she came at the RIGHT time somehow..thanks again..=)..

hmm..after sch went to eat lunch..lunch was NICE~~..crapping..was meeting patrick chow our lecturer at 1:30..then buy noodles..did lame things..making a fuss over how much chilli we wan..ah beng said..he wan 10 red chilli..those small de..then 3 green one..and 3 chilli seed..-________"...never forget the times..he go and put the whole chilli container onto the tray to be carried up to eat..WAH LAO..he lame lah..now i go buy mee..they ask mi wan chilli i must SEE myself how much they scope for mi..that wen qian also..><...went to BI lecture in a staff room's meeting room..nice environment..conducting lessons in slack way..yesh it did helps mi on one chapter of the test tml..

just reached home..feeling feverish..><..oh ya last night i dun study my PME..was teaching him..boolean algebra instead..><..my year 1 stuff..heng i remember arh..><..dunno how he did today in his paper..i hope he do well..cuz mine was terrible horrible vegetable..yesh tml last paper..we going out to..err marina square after sch arh for lunch..by late noon need to get home then go generate $$ liao..yesh looking forward to tml..and of cuz sat..=)..its coming i am seeing HIM soon..last night i did talk to him on phone..quite long sia..-____-"..tired like #&^%* today..tml last paper..just cheong straight liao..still think of give up..but now NO WAY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~...ROAR~~~~..if so easy give up NOT CALL JING XIAN LIAO..

kz lah go prepare study liao..yesh no need sleep straight cheong i dun care..><..kee siao liao..><..life is just full of its ups and downs....like a sine wave..how i hope i can go up and not stuck at the lowest point of the curve..negative duno what lor..-____-"..jia you all the pple having last paper tml~~..and all my JC friends..jia you..~~~...take care..tml will not be a depressing entry i can assure that..

some pictures to end the day..steal from bi shi's friendster..=)..HAHA that day went seconday sch friends gathering at pizza hut..yesh..nice pic..



esther,bi shi,claire and mi



us with mac uncle..><..

MST Day 2

MST Day 2

AnP paper..zzz..last night..came home from maths paper..maths paper was of cuz much better than AnP lah~~...yesterday came home..slack awhile..then start AnP le..wah study till mid night 3am..><...almost die..then today AnP..those study one no come out..study one come out..-____-"..y come out the ear~~~..idiot..y dun come out skeletal or errm skin..y the ear of all..zzz..okay dun say le..i've make sure i score 50 marks can le..HAHA...yesh calculate liao..><..tml paper and fri paper also 50 marks can le..yeah yeah..i am aiming for the BEST liao lor..

today woke up..suppose to be 9:30..how come my clock no ring..-___-"..end up wake up at 11..wah lao~~~..not enough time to study le lah..><..woke up..faster try to stuff everything into head..wah very tired..around 1 go sleep awhile..20 mins??..wake up eat..bathe then go sch take stupid AnP liao..><..today everyone was early..LOLX..so reach the place early..crapping all the way with them..saw mentoring peeps there..yesh at control station..can say is all of them cuz there's mentoring session today..zhang hui very good job..tell him we got test..he say nvm lah~~..there's one more semester..dun need study..i use my notes and whack him man..LOLX..idiots lor..saw cedrick..they kind of make mi relax actually..see them seldom make mi stress..unless during committee meeting..oh ya this friday meeting i'm not going..going to generate $$..meaning work..yesh..teaching 2 kids now is zzz..finding hard to manage time liao..

oh ya 2 more days to see him..:X..last night no talk to him..his mum at home..:X:X..lolx..but its alright..i actually no mood to talk also..very stress up..very tense..dun feel like talking to anybody also..><..even i feel like helping nic..i mean reply properly to him on MSN..but then sorry nic..T_T..so sorry..was busy with my work..ya..friday night then help u ba..><..after fri night then flood mi with all your problems..LOLX~~..and i will be glad to help..

miss him lots..><..2 more days..yesh its coming..looking forward..=)..kz got to go and err bathe..study PME~~and eat..and try to sleep early..tml morning paper..dunno today can talk to him anot..i hope..=)..

(p/s: ming i hope u are fine now..glad to know u've cleared your thoughts and errmm know what to do..thats good...know where the problem lies..and stuff like that...jia you..=)..)

Day 1 Of Mst

Day 1 Of Mst

yesh i am still at home..><...haha paper starting at 3:30..so ya..meeting qian at 2:45pm to print out the PME assignement..haven print out..cuz do at home..no go back sch to print lor..then today need hand in....now 12 something..i think i going to take a nap first before my paper..not feeling well as in physically for this 2 days..emotionally i am feeling great..but my body just zzz...told shirley i not feeling well on MSN..must state physically..HAHA..arbo she thought is emotionally..cuz always find her when emotionally got problem..physically got problem is see doctor liao lor..><..having stomach upset now lor..><..

did some past year qn when i woke up..err..nth much..relax myself and my body also..><..last night was studying for A n P..but..no use..nothing seems to go in..i am just reading through..hoping tat i remember something..haa..slept at 3 plus last night..earlier than my normal 4 am le..actually 2 plus wan sleep le..then know he calling mi so i wait lor..=)..yesh we talk till 3 plus..HAHA..as usual very shy..><..my poor boy..he had only 4 hours plus of sleep left..T_T..so ke lian..><..sunday night 2.5 hours..last night 4..><..

its A n P day tonight..><..doubt i can finish studying and err..stuff everything inside my bed after my maths paper till tml~~heng tml is afternoon paper..><..good luk for my test later ba..=)..hope is alright..and please after my nap my stomach is alright le..><...ARGH~~irritating..i go prepare myself physically and emotionally for MST later..yesh..

3 days left..after friday..is heaven~~~and able to see him on sat..the day i have been waiting for since the last time we meet..><..i know he feels that way too..=)..good luk for your tests this week too..jia you..jia you to everybody having tests and exams this week ba..take care~~

Not Feeling Well Yet Have To Mug..><...

Not Feeling Well Yet Have To Mug..><...

haiz not really feeling well today..><..i am going to sleep after i blog finish..and err..complete one more past year paper for maths ba..dun wanna stress myself by doing so much also..tonight must sleep early a bit that normal ba..haha..tml having noon paper not so stress..yesh..=)..

yesterday went piano lessons after blogging..came home..read A and P ppt slides till zzz..so many things..half way i go take a nap..wake up continue lor..was drawing my book all over when i read through the slides lah..ya..drawing as in highlighting..HAHA..yesh..also got take down notes lah...study study finally finish drawing at mid night..-_______-"...before my last and a half chapter to finish..he called mi..=)..yesh..HAHA..long time since i talked to someone on phone and it was mid night 2am..><..so shy..><..talked till very late arh..err..around 3?HAHA..and he left with 2.5 hrs of sleep..T_T..so sorry..first time talking to him on phone..=)..after he go sleep..i faster finish my last bit of A n P..then..ate supper..read BI ppt..felt very angry when i read it..cuz everything in the PPT=TB~~buai ta han le..ai yo~~~..><..y can't it be shorter or highlight the key points to make things easier..><..rather than chunk everything inside...so angry...

haven touch PME at all..sort of give up..><..today wake up..do maths..err finally get some concepts right..still got a bit doubt..did the past year paper..okay got some confidence..tml morning before go exam then do again ba..=)..after i finish one more later..the lecturer post so many past year paper up..-___-"...see also sianz~~..tonight going to read through again the A n P..nothing seems to go into my brain though..><..so many chapters..better make sure something goes in before tml night i dun need sleep le..><..

4 days left le..yesh yesh..4 days left to see him too..=)..looking forward..good luk for tml paper ba and to all 2b/22 pple..see all the MSN nick very depressing one..even though i feel that too..i also feel like giving up..><..try my best ba..=)..hope it turns out FINE..yesh..kz got to continue my past year paper than i wan sleep le..lack of sleep man..bb all..

Stressed Day 5 And Last Session At Kids Read

Stressed Day 5 And Last Session At Kids Read

errm..yesh went for kids read session in the morning just like what i write in my last entry..yesh went there..reached very early..HAHAHA..didn't know my house was so near also..so left home very early -___-"..saw zu wei..then we walked around..while waiting for cedrick and the rest who came..by 12...the parents bring their kids here...1st time seeing them and is the last time for mi le..><..so sad..brought them over to mac..they are all very young..=)..then i go in find place to sit..then i sat with the twins sister and meryl..



meryl,mi,wen shan and wen hui..=)..the one without specs is the older one..they dun look alike cuz now one wear specs..imagine both dun have wear..i'm dead..><..but they are very quiet lah..=)..



thats them with macdonald man..=)..haha so blur blur..



thats us outside mac when leaving the place..what a G@Y pose..zu wei's idea..><..

i went home after that..took different bus from them..i heading straight home..they going interchange..reached home around err..1 plus..rot till 2..then start to study..study awhile fall asleep le..-____-"..woke up at 4..study all the way till 8 plus...bathe..then maple..yesh levelled up le~~~..=)..thanks to HIM..haha.=)..not touching maple for the time being liao since levelled up le...then play till level up study again..stressed till ><..jia you ba~~

oh ya last picture for the day..mi with my freshies at jin tai primary school for the trial mentoring session that day..=)..



can see wen qian at the back of the picture..LOLX~~talking to jeff ba i think..haha..or hmm peeping at someone in front of mi..OPPS~~~:X:X:X:X...

missing u..><..5 days left...=)

Un-Stressed Day 4

Un-Stressed Day 4

HAHA~~A change of Heading..Yesterday was an un-stressed day finally~~~..><..only day i took a break~~~..><..i am very tired now..typing with eyes closed depsite is 10 in the morning..YaWn..slept late last night..><..want to wake up at 9..end up go back sleep..-____-"...

yesterday,wake up..maple whole day~~..><..train till wah gong gong..earn money till gong gong..experience come in like free one..><...long time since i train whole day in maple le lor~~~..this hols only yesterday i think..so pathetic..now is maple 1st year anniversary~~..then yesterday from 12 noon to 12 am it is 2x exp..i tell u server full like crap..i go in dun dare log out..><..i tio lag out once took mi 5-10 mins to go back..-____-"..let mi post some pictures of maple..=P..i took some and intend to post it up cuz i thinking today is maple day mah..they got many things for us actually~~~to celebrate maple 1st year anniversary with them..like 2x drop rate..and dropping of maple equipment..><..they even got events outdoor lah~if i earning much more money now i confirm will go..cost around 50 dollars..><..



they are so sweet..still wish us that at the same time..=)..wonder whether will get a chance to see them real life..=)..

yesterday train lor..haven level.HE level le...><..as usual faster than mi..HAHA..we decide le..next 2x exp card..he dun buy..i buy can le..like that our rate same..-________-"...can save 15 dollars le..:X..



all those maple items i got..actually i got more..><..dun say le..inventory no space...keep drop things till i wan to #E&^*)(..nic saw your glove?HAHA..please come claim from mi..before i NPC~~~..:X..and your shoe from rong..we really no space..thanks nic..

what a day of mapling..~~..if i cheong maple like cheong studies..JIU HAO~~..y no course call Diploma In Maplestory..HAHA..:X..oh..now i going to prepare go out..going Boon Lay CC for the Kids Read Program..they having some graduation party at the Mac there..yesh hope i enjoy later..i know kids read de kids very kawaii de lor..they are so young..p1-p2..so cute..><..hope i see the twins girls..anyway is till 1:30 nia..very short time thats y i go down..and is near my house..arbo i also won't go down lor..better go prepare soon..arbo cedrick is going to kill mi soon..for LATE LATE LATE..:X..=P..

last night chat with sop till quite late..hope she's fine..=)..everybody take care~~jia you for next week exams..when i am 1/2 give up liao..-____-"..bye everyond..kids read de ginna~~wo lai le..:X..

Stressed Up Day 2 and 3

Stressed Up Day 2 and 3

yesh i am back..not dead yet..soon..><..8 days left~~><..seriously sometimes own mentality think is still long but actually is not..very fast next monday..then very fast..all the papers are over..process seems long..but soon it will pass..yesh it will..i really hope so..><..going to study again after i blog..><..life sux~~..

yesterday went to meet up with BV gang during evening time since i so eng at home~~study till going crazy go out breathe fresh air..hmm..we ate ice cream from scoopz..first time eat the ice cream there..everytime hear pple say nice but i just didn't try it..we ordered the 5 scoops de..buddies de..very nice..HAHA..5 flavours..then..mi,yy,bishi and claire eat lor..while waiting for esther to come..nana couldn't make it cuz of her dragon boat..-__-"..then we eat finish the ice cream it was already 8:30..we went into pizza hut around that time..just nice esther came..then start ordering the food lor...we ate finish at around 10 plus?..haa..then walk around in that very quiet JP cuz everything close le..took many pictures in pizza hut..waiting for them to upload then i post it up here..its nice..=)..hmm then we went 7-11...to buy alcoholic drink~~haha heng got esther..who is the only 18 among us..HAHA..today is bi shi's turn~~happy birthday gal~~

we drank the alcohol at those interchange dark dark place..HAHA very ulu..pple thought we drug addict that type lor..-____-"...then we sat there..under the cloudy nights without stars..talk a lot..about past and present..5 years since we know each other le..13-18..OMG.><..so many things have changed..we still preferred our seconday school life..being young is great..i never wan to turn 18 lor if give mi a choice..><..we went home at around 11:55 haha..wished bi shi a early 5 mins happy birthday before i went to take bus from interchange home..reached home..around 12 plus..then..rot around..sleep~~...didn't do anything much though..><..want to study but too tired le lah~..

haiz 8 days life~~~..jia you ba~~...oh ya also wished those in JC having mid year exams next week de good luk..=)..jia you ba esther and YY..HAHA~~..dig grave jio mi can le...i wan side by side the tombstone..i know esther's materials for the coffin haven come..haha~~..><..bb all~~be back tml~~..=)..status:DEAD~~~

Stressed Up Day 1

Stressed Up Day 1

HAHA..yesh stressed up Day 1~~..><..how many more days i am left with..A LOT..><..10 more days..jia you ba~~~..after next friday..WOOO~~..seriously feel myself slacken so much as compare to year 1..this is not a good sign..><..since start of term everything in a mess..><..y like that..life sux lor..ai yo~~..i not hoping for much this semester..i only hope for a PASS in all subjects for now..all my dreams seems so far away since year 2 start..dreams are dreams..they are meant to happen during u sleep..and not meant for real life..till now there's only one dream there's currently happening in my life..a beautiful one..^^

Today went back sch with a very sianz feeling..for a very short meeting ya..:X..then went to pei wen qian..to print her stuff..her com no graphic card..then want to do past year paper also cannot..><..then i see those past year paper..i can only say SIANZ~..SUX..every qn so difficult..all dunno how to do..life sux..10 days and it will end..><..kz i will try to endure..just finish doing my PME..><..the write-up..i seriously dun understand what the whole assignment talking about.just copy and paste only lor..wah lao..><..PME sux..ROAR~~..

i am going to sleep soon and study for maths le..first paper..study a BIT only..ya on sunday..HAA~~..study till super sianz..kaoz.~~..y all modules so zzz...SIANZ LAH~~..yesh i've motivation..its strong enough..=)..but still..the thought of 10 days left still sux..how to finish studying all lor~~...anyway wen qian told mi..serious a blog can't really write how much u feel..she suggest mi..to put there FOR MORE DETAILS PLEASE CLICK then link to another blog..good idea..then another blog the skin dun need so nice..lok cok lok cok can le..haha for ownself to see..*shy* one le..HAHA..i told her shy lah~~..:X

bless that i'm alive after 10 days..:X..yesh cya..be back tml..with stress day number 2..:X..

Another Great Day..=)..Yeah..

Another Great Day..=)..Yeah..

=)..just back..=)..so nice and happpy..its just like a dream..a beautiful one..=)..thanks for the day..yesh..we went to find sop and bel after that..its been a long time since we find them..=)...nice day with them..even though they make us walk here and there..and dunno y they kana pressurized by us..-__-"..saw another maple friend there..find her not bad looking le..><..

my leg hurts actually..LOLX..i think is the toe nail too long..now cut le very song..:X..should i go for tml meeting?ARGH i need to study..><..seriously yes..yesterday went out to study alone in mac..HAHA i can't concentrate..half way i go home..:X..and sleep..ARGH ..must concentrate..is just next tuesday..OMG~~~1st paper..faster till friday over ba~~~=)..i wan maple..i wan go out with him..=)..going out again after my exams..use it for a motivation for mi to study ba..=)..

anyway..HE sms mi last night..sms mi good night..yesh..i did reply..yesh..mixed feelings when i receive that..><..kz..bye all..i wanna rest le..night..=)..

A Great Day...

A Great Day...

Yesterday was a great day..=)..heex..dun wan go into a lot of details..:X:X..yeah we went movie..dinner and home..ya..=)..nice day..thanks~~~...

Anyway i also dunno what to post..LOLX..just feel like typing..mum asked mi is it mi and him broke up already..she said it in a funny way..like talking to ginna..i know i am..i tried to distract myself or somehow change the topic..cuz once pple mention it..or ask whether am i alright..there's tears in my eyes..at least everyday..got 5 mins of the 24 hours i am thinking..that 5 mins is enough...enough to change my mood..can say i am fine..ya when i am not thinking lor..or keeping myself busy..but there's still 5 mins everyday or sometimes more..i dunno when this will stop..i need the time..

Today i am going to start studying le..><..yesh i am..next friday maple is going to have 2x exp from 12pm-2am..i am thinking to push my tuition to that sunday a not..LOLX~~...i am going to start studying now..so i can camp home that day..=)..and also tuesday going out with HIM again after my meeting in sch ba..=)..kz gtg..going for piano lessons le..dun wanna be late like last time again~~..please dun rain...

Mentoring Sports Meet

Mentoring Sports Meet

Oh yeah went for mentoring sports meet today..hmm..okay i woke up at 10..be in school by 11..yeah then we slack in club house..LOLX..was supposed to have briefing on the event..but dun think there's a need lah..nth much also...those games all of us play before le..we played minature soccer ball..poison ball and captain ball..mi and shirley was incharge of captain ball..dun think pple who take note of score has a good job..they dun..my eyes are following their action always..

hmm..when we in club house..we were slacking around..then we need to choose our number to put on our jersey for the main com jersey lah..for ourselves only..then number and name..name i put my own name JING XIAN..then number i dunno what to choose..sms HIM and he say 22..=)..i got another class jersey my sec 4 class jersey is 33..haha..he said 22 came into his mind..then i just put down lor..until qian told mi..22 opposite is a heart shape..like tat also can..-____-"..after that all the games incharge have to go to the sports hall to prepare for our games..mine was easy..just put 2 chairs opposite of each other for them to stand there..=)..so..after that went to eat with wei ping and zhang hui..saw jada and yun lin there..eat finish faster go back sports hall gather..then start captain ball le..mi and shirley busy le..she take note of time and those out balls..my hand can cramp sia..cuz i use it to remember the scores..LOLX...

the whole thing ended at 5 ya..went home with shirley,nine and manda...but then when i was slacking at one corner..cuz only 4 groups..then 3 games..so 2 games on going at a time..so one game will slack..when i slacking..a ball flew into my face..><..wah seh pain sia..first casualty of the day just like my FO camp..i scare of the next sentosa outing sia..HAHA..i am the 1st aider..and i am going to treat myself..-_____-"..they say i run run run go save casualty end up i fall down become casualty myself..HAHA..maybe lor..bless mi..><..

came home went to teach..nth much just back from teaching going maple soon with HIM..=)..and guys i think i am feeling better..i think...haiz..*forget forget*..tml i am going out with HIM..yeah..i hope is nice..oh ya went JP yesterday for the last dinner with him..took pictures of the ultraman show..HAHA..i shall post it below..night everyone..=)..will blog again tml or sunday ba..



they fighting some monsters..



heex..winning pose..haha they won..=)..

I'm Sad

I'm Sad

I'm Sad.Thinking i have already get over it.No,i've not.I'm still trying.Closing the blog tat time thinking i need time to get over it.Jx will be back soon.In the mean time she need to clear her thoughts and carry on with life.be back soon.